Saturday, July 26, 2008

1st Impression


I guess ur guys 1st impression is.. she want to get married.. coz y.. coz she wearing wedding dress.. am i correct? ^^"

I wish i tested d wedding dress for my own wedding but d wedding dress i tested for my sis in law.. :D

If u guys see some1 who is is selekeh of coz u guys will think that guy is not a proper guy.. including financial..

Wanna story b4 this i met some1 he's smoker and wut can i say on that time i thought in my mind.. He's not my taste.. u know wut.. if Allah said kun fa yakun.. nutting is impossible.. and I had relationship with him.. hehhe.. my ex la..

so guys sometimes wut u dont like is the 1 suitable for u.. and wut u really want is not the 1 for u..

2day i delivered cupc8 at my lost&found fren house.. he's not stayed at there anymore.. i delivered for his anak buah..
I ring the bell but no 1 open the door until i called my fren.. after that his sis meet me.. she said that she thought i'm chinese salesgirl.. hehhe.. thats y she dont go out ^^"

so if u saw some2 who have fierce face x semstinya org die garang..
so hopefully starting 2day my thinking will change.. :)

some1 said to me.. org yg jahat buat jahat.. mmg da confirm jahat..
lagi bahaya org yg muka baik buat jahat.. :) we dunno until kita terkena..

Take care guys!!
lil m@fia - amoi

Sunday, July 13, 2008

Miserable

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dunno y today my mind thinking bout my x..
miss him.. miss his laughing.. miss his voice.. miss how he treat me.. :~(


its
really hurt me a lot!! ouch..

how i wish 1 y
ear already past.. coz i know i will not remember him that much..
i wish i'm strong enuff..
i wish my
relationship not so long so i'm not hurt like this..

if u loved some1 dont give 100% so when something happen with ur relationship, u guys still ok..
if u loved some1 let him/her go.. let them make their choice..
when u love some1 u cant ask for the returner.. u cant force love..
love is not blin
d but we are..

i read somewhere.. girls do like to release their expression in blog.. is that true??
yeah.. i guess its true ^^"

k guys.. wish me luck..
muacs..
lil m@fia - amoi -

Friday, July 11, 2008

Smoker

















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Hi guys.. me again.. kinda bored so set my mind to post something..
D topic is bout smoker.. I have few friends which i respect them for not smoking in front me.. u know y i hate my friend smoke? becoz i care bout them..
I really hate when i saw bf smoke in front of their gf.. father who smoke in front their children..beside their lovely wife.. for me.. they selfish..
which 1 is selfish? the 1 is not a smoker or the smoker itself?
for me if u guys smoke, plz plz plz dont smoke in front ur loved one.. dont b too selfish..
its kinda funny when boy can smoke but girl cant?? y?? wut d reason? they said becoz girl will pregnant 1 day.. not so nice.. but is that fair when u guys(boy/man) smoke beside ur girl? is that fair?
is that fair u guys smoke in front ur children? or ur baby born?
b4 u smoke think ur loved one.. at least try to less the number of ur cigarette..
dont smoke in front ur loved 1..
wanna tell u guys story which i think d good parents..
Few years ago when i'm working @hotel, i saw couple eating breakfast with their baby.. And then i saw d guy go to other place and i saw him smoke...and the wife taking care of their baby.. after few minutes.. i saw him went back to his wife and then the wife took his husband place.. d spot which his husband smoke.. i saw her smoke.. and her husband take role his wife b4 this.. which is look at their baby.. really respect their action.. even i dont like smoker..

hurm.. my x smoke but not smoke in front me.. when i clashed with him.. my gf(nora) which will give birth soon(mudah²an semua selamat..amin) told me that she like me b4 this.. want to find hubby which is not a smoker.. she found the 1 who is not smoke but dont hv chemistry.. and then she met her hubby.. he is a smoker but she said she enjoy with him.. and dont mind spent her life with him.. thats y she get married with him.. so she said to me that if i want to find bf who is not smoke is kinda hard.. but who know.. maybe i will get married maybe not..
I just hope if i find some1 I hope he will quit smoking 1 day.. i dont want my soulmate leave me 1st.. that wut i thought..
okie guys.. enuff babble bout smoker..
wanna watch j-dorama (Last Friend).. i wish i have truly friend.. n will find my soulmate.. amin.. dont want spent too much time in relationship..
take care guys..
muacss...
lil mafi@ - amoi-

Meet Shin Chan



29/06/08
On Sunday morning after talked with my ex..
After i cried for a while.. i sat in front pc.. surfing.. check my blog.. owh 4got to tell u guys.. i have small business rite now.. yiipiie.. cupcakes/cakes.. will tell u guys later ^^..
okie back to the topic.. after surfing around dunno y i search my 1st love name.. try his fullname but not so luck.. then try his name.. yippie.. after i had bad news then i have good news.. surf his myspace.. look whether the rite person i search or wut..
b4 this i tried quite few times but dont hv luck on that time.. but Alhamdulilah i found him..
glad he's fine.. fine with his job.. his family.. his life.. his love..
never thought will meet him again..
will tell u guys about him.. hehhe.. my 1st love when i'm in form 2(14years old.. wah.. so young ^^) cant remember how long our relationship.. never have a date.. hehhe.. dunno y?? maybe we still young? huh.. :P
but wut i remember i called him.. he having party @home.. not even asked me.. so kinda frust.. then 1 of my classmate.. he consoled me.. bla bla bla.. then he said he wanna couple me.. so i couple with him... but only for 1 WEEK!! huuhu.. dont have chemistry..
then i guess that how my relationship ending with my 1st love.. ouchh..
never hv a conversation with him anymore.. he's not even look at me.. so i'm kinda sad..but even we not talk i always watch him.. hehhe.. even sometimes i only see his school bag.. ^^..thats enuff for me.. :p.. i wish on that time i can talk with him.. thats y communication is important.. dont ever ever 4get to communicate with ur partner..
now.. after 10 years i meet him in cyber.. never thought never dream i can see his nick again.. :D my dream come true.. hehe.. dont want anything from him.. just wanna wish him to be happy.. :)

so guys if u have dream.. dream.. and wish.. insya-Allah.. :) like me.. ^^
ok next dream is.. :p
wish me luck with my life k guys..
i will be aunty.. 2boys.. my sis n my sis in law.. yippie.. cant wait!! i wish i can hv 1.. err... mooree.. :p
take care guys.. hope i can write again..
i'm waiting for my rainbow after had thunderstorm..
big hug!!
-amoi-

Single Again..









Loong time no type anything at here.. and long time no pics.. no babble bout Junki.. hehhee..
hi guys.. how're u? hope u guys doing great in this year..
I just had thunderstorm.. my relationship which almost 5 years just end on 29/6/08.. dunno wut happen.. he just bored with me.. ahh.. really a waste time.. :(
after we had soo many memories.. good n bad.. and after we talked about future.. about our family.. this happen to me.. never thought in my mind this is our end..
b4 dis i imagine i can get married on 8/8/08.. i love the combination.. i kinda obsessed with number.. hehe.. b4 this i buy the plat number 8009 same with my sis.. if i want to buy car in d future, i wish i will buy again the number.. ^^
okie.. back to the topic.
. dunno whether he have new gf or wut.. i'm really shocked.. cried so many times.. cant be alone for a while.. too many memories.. loved him so much.. but i know we can never become 2gether.. even i hate him for leave me but i know i will forgive him 1day..







after few days we clashed i give him smsed but he's not reply... ahh.. so sad.. i already set in my mind i cant bother him anymore.. he will never come back.. b4 this he told me that his ex-gf loved to spend his money to buy things.. after we clashed i told my bro.. y i cant be like his ex b4.. spent his money.. if he (my ex) leave me at least i got something.. hhuhuuh..
u're lucky "A".. i'm not like ur old ex.. i dont like spent my partner money.. if i want i will get for myself.. unless he want buy for me.. :p








rite now,i already fine.. thanks soo much for my mom,my bro and my family.. and ppl around me.. especially my cyber friend(G2) thanks a lot guys..i dont know whether i can fall in love again or not.. and whether if i fall in love until the end of my life or not..
i dont wish this happen to me again.. wut i need is keep going.. and i will try hard not to believe wut ppl around me said.. i'm so naive sometimes.. believed that all ppl around me is a nice guys.. but who thought the one i trust and the one i loved.. he's the one betrayed me..
just if i meet some1 again.. i hope i'm not spent my time in relationship too long.. i just need commitment..
"A" thanks a lot for ur kindness for all this year.. the time we spent together.. thanks for all the memories.. thanks for everything when i need some1 even rite now u already leave me.. i wish u find some1 better than me..some1 who can fit ur list..
n i hope i will find some1.. if not i dont mind stay single.. as long i can take care of my parents..
muacss.. thanks again guys for ur support..

"dan boleh jadi kamu benci sesuatu akan tetapi ia lebih baik bagi kamu dan boleh jadi kamu kasihi sesuatu akan tetapi ia melarat bagimu. Allah mengetahui tetapi kamu tidak mengetahui.”
(surah Baqarah ayat 216)

-amoi-